Who am I?

I was freshly out of a drug induced stupor, sitting in another rehab, in another small group therapy session, when the facilitator asked the group: Who are you? Such a seemingly simple question but those three little words struck me at my core and left me speechless and wondering. It felt like the question pierced through my conscious mind and sent me to into some foreign subconscious dream land. The drugs had become my everything and without them I knew nothing. "Who am I", they'd ask. To which I'd respond, "I have no fucking clue.”

Today, I believe that that questions is one of the most significant questions one can ask one's self.

Who am I?

The ego scrambles to come up with answers. I am a fiancé. I am a father. I am a son and a brother. I'm a recovery coach. I'm a meditator. I'm a fitness enthusiast... and on and on...

Then Higher Awareness kicks in and realizes that all of those things will fade to dust. Every single one of them will pass and I realize that is not who I am.

So who am I?

I AM. I am a Divine Being. I am a child of God. I am a Wave in the Ocean. I am a part of the Divine Source. I am Infinite. I am a Divine Being who is here in this body for a time.

Instantly my ego combats, well if you're so Divine, then what are you doing here?

Why am I here?

I have come here to learn. I am here to grow and evolve through all of my experiences. Even the ones I don't like very much. They are all a part of my path. When I came to this world, I forgot who I was for awhile. We all do. If we didn’t, then the test would be far too easy. You see much of this life is an encounter with the unknown. If it was all known then we wouldn't be learning anything.

I am here to remember who I am. While I still forget quite often and enter the house of fear, I an slowly getting better and better at owning my Divine Worth.

And with that, I’ll leave you with the question: Do you know who you are?

Joe BeckComment